Life In The Sun

Hey there guys. sorry i havent updated in a very long time, but as the title states, my world has been messed with. some things for the better, some fore the worse, but its is all slowly turning ok. So i supposed for the first announcement, John and i are no longer engaged, let alone together. We broke up about 2 months ago now. It wasnt working, we were always fighting over the same things, and they were never going to change, so i broke it off before we made a big mistake. It sucked hard core, but it was the best thing to do. So i am staying in adelaide, and he is staying in queensland, but thankfully we are being rather civilised about everything so hopefully we wont end up hating each other.

as far as work goes, I am working weekends with ocea at the beauty bar and mon, tues, wed on programs for mum and dad, so work seems to be going nicely finally. 

I have taken up swing dancing classes, which might i add are fucking awesome fun i am very much loving it.

And here is the biggest news of all – i have a new boyfriend! I know its so soon after finishing with john, and i assure you i wasnt looking for one. But our meeting was accidental, and he is one of the most amazing people i have ever met. His name is ben who is a super hot german bartender who is studying physics but more on my new boy later. i need to get ready for swing.

Over the next few weeks i will slowly be updating the site (ie removing the wedding section) and hopefully blogging alot more on life in general.

Sorry for my extended absense from the WWW. Much love x

God i feel like crap. I am so tired of doing nothing and forever being alone. I always try to be so strong and put up the front that im ok with never having any time with my fiance and doing everything by myself… BUT IM NOT! i hate being alone, i hate being unemployed, i hate the perpetual bordom that is my life. If i didnt know any better i would think i was being punished for something. this pretty much sums up how i am feeling right now:

 
If you looked inside this girl’s heart, you’d find secrets and lies, best friends and guys. But what you’ll find hardest to believe, is how hard it is for her to smile and stay strong. When nothing is right, and everything is wrong

Yup, right now my life is just dandy

You wake up in the middle of the night panicing with hot sweats after a nightmare, and realise the next morning your nightmare was about someone messing with the coding on your webpage. NERD. Thats me.

I am having the crappiest day today. I have a horrible cold, the house is trashed and i have soooo much cleaning to do, I have heaps of homework to get done for tomorrow, and i just found out that the repair bill on  my poor smashed up car is like $8000 so they are more than likely going to write it off My poor little car