Life In The Sun

I know i have been totally slack with the whole blogging thing lately, but to tell you the truth, i just havent really wanted to. Just as soon as i thought things were about to start getting good again, all my hopes were brought crashing down and now i have to start all over again. I kinda lost the plot a little and am currently visiting my parents down in adelaide. WHAT can i say, when the shit hits the fan sometimes a girl just needs her mum and some good girlfriends.

So to start off the crapness, i have been super depressed about me and john, and it is mostly thanks to stupid twilight. It got me thinking about unconditional love and soul mate sand what have you, and to put it blankly love like what is held between Bella and Edward just doesnt exist. Its too perfect. And the thought that something like that could never happen made me really sad. I know no one is perfect but still.

And then i got even more down by the fact that john was never around or there to support me half the time , so on with my downward spiral, i kept getting really upset and crying alot over almost nothing.

Then, as if i needed anything else to make me feel miserable, i got a call from Amanda, the owner at carlies, to say that none of the other girls working there were getting along with me particually well, and that most of them didnt like me,  so she thought it best that she end my contract with carlies. Yes, after barely 2 weeks working there, i got fired. Again. What is it with queensland. It seems like its impossible to impress anyone up there. very annoying.

The worst part was, i had been arguing quite badly with john that day and amanda called shortly after one of our screaming matches, so i was already crying, and once i had been fired i just kinda lost it. I turned my phone off and just drove and drove and drove. I was planning on driving back to adelaide but then i realised i had no money for petrol or any clothes with me except for the expensive new shoes i had just bought myself to celebrate that i had a job (ironic huh), so i turned around and went home and called my parents and told them i needed to come home. And so here i am, sitting in my parents office on my dads computer.

i have been spending some time with my girls and what have you whilst trying to figure out what i should be doing with my life. I know it seems silly to put my trust in a phycic but i was in the mall today and there was one there so i thought why not? She told me that right now i am just going with the flow and that is ok, because it is helping me to find myself, i am becoming more mature and taking control of who i am as a person. She told me that I am very wise and that i need to trust my own decisions and not look back, because they are the right ones and everything will work out.

So, lets hope she is right.

well, as the title states, i got the job at carlies! Yay!

I went out with flick friday night for a big girls night, and we got rather drunk. Came home at like 4am and collapsed into bed, only to be called by amanda (my new boss) at 9.30 saturday morning saying i had the job, and could i please come in and work straight away. So i Got up and headed over to carlies with THE BIGGEST hangover, luckily it was only a short shift. But beleive it or not she was happy with me for coming in hung over :S Apparently it was good that i will come in no matter how i am if she is desperate.

So i have been working there for a few days now and it is going quite well. I get to wax alot and it isnt exactly hard work, and the best part is she is sending me off to be trained in Napoleon make up!!! Isnt that awesome!

So yeah, i havent really been doing much but working and playing around on stickam.

which, by the way, is my new webcam if you havent seen it yet

Well yeah, thats about it really. Toodles my dears!

Lol, sorry for the title, i just saw it on someones av on Kville and thought it was amusing But it is sooooo true. i love being a girl!

Anyway….

Today i had my trial shift at carlies cosmetics. i absolutely love it there! The owner amanda is soooo nice, and so are all the other staff. Plus the use some of the most awesome products (napoleon, bloom and model co to name a few!), plus if i get the job the will train me in all of them! I hope soooo bad that i get it i really do. I felt so good when i got home today. I was tired and coered in wax, but it felt good to have worked all day. I have been getting so down just sitting around doing nothing lately, getting out and doing something productive felt really good.

These past few days i have been spending a bit of time with Jess and Larnie, which is nice. Different, but nice. I never thought larnie liked me that much, but she invited me out tonight to go join them down the broad waters for a few drinks, and i did and it was lovely

I am feeling like all is starting to go good again. Lets just hope it lasts.

Oh, and i know i havent posted any photos for my “project 365″, honest truth is i completely forgot after like 2 days. lol. But you all knew that was always going to happen didnt you? I know, i am hopelss

It is officially Me and Johns 3 year anniversary! Isnt that exciting? And the best part this year – he actually remembered! Yay!

As the title states, indeed i have   It will start on January 31 and will end on February 25.

Look at all the cool prizes i could win:

Dianne of palmatics.org – domain hosting package (shared plan)

Ms. Arianne of xoxaiiya.com – domain (.info), hosting and 1 year advertisement

Rose of glamorous-heart.info – 1000 E-cards, 1 year text advertisements in her 2 sites

Dhadha of maldita.us – 500 E-cards from maldita.us and 500 E-cards from mykimycup.com

Janelle of conest-love.bs.com and phinkness.info – 500 EC from xoxjanellexox.net, 500 EC from phinkness.info and 1 month 125 x 125 banner ad space

And they are still looking for more sponsours

So when the voting starts, you better get going boys and girls, cos i know you love me

Ok so i have decided i am going to attempt doing the project 365 thing again, but this time with my own twist so hopefully this time i will stick at it for more than a week!

I am going to set a daily alarm on my phone and each day when the alarm goes of i will take a photo of either what i am doing, where i am or just myself and i will take these photos on my phone, because i never go anywhere without it. SO there you go. I wonder how long it will last this time I will start tomorrow as it will be monday. Yay.